STORIES OF HOPE

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I had the privilege of working with Kamila Tan my senior year of high school. Having her support was vital to the maintenance of my recovery when I first returned home from treatment. Kamila Tan is one of the most open minded, inspiring, and caring women I have ever met and she embodies resilience and love. Having a mentor who personally lived through the depths of her own eating disorder allowed Kamila to be so available to my emotional and physical struggles. She armed me with invaluable recovery tools which I still use on a daily basis and offered me unique perspectives on my eating disorder thoughts and core beliefs. Kamila is an amazing role model and was an absolute blessing in my recovery and I look up to her tremendously.

~Maddie H. | High School Beach Volleyball Athlete

"Desperate and terrified, I sat in my 17 year old daughter’s bed, unable to sleep trying to make sense of the silent killer that had stolen her. My daughter, with the kindest soul, sweetest spirit and the biggest smile had been battling an opponent that paled in comparison to any elite beach volleyball player she ever faced. Eating Disorder, Exercise Addiction, Bulimia, Body Dysmorphia, Depression, Anxiety, Binging, Restriction and Self Harm were terms that were part of a language that I did not speak. These terms were not a description of the person my daughter showed the world yet defined her internal reality and they were slowly killing her.
 

As I “Googled, Eating Disorders In Beach Volleyball Athletes”, I found Kamila, she spoke this language. I listened to her journey, and felt as though I was listening to my daughter. Easy going, everyone’s friend, athletically elite, insanely intelligent and dangerously sick. I emailedKamila with my daughter’s story, hoping for a resource or maybe a recommendation for parents as I live on the opposite side of the country. What I received was Kamila, willing to be raw and vulnerable in sharing a parent’s struggle and challenges with Eating Disorders through the lens of an individual being controlled by the disease.
 

To say that this insight was invaluable does not do Kamila’s impact justice. Not only did it help me as a parent understand my role( self reflection IS hard) in my daughter’s illness, she encouraged self compassion, patience with myself and my daughter while focusing on recovery and healing. As I write this, I am reminded of what the fear felt like, that night 6 months ago, and Kamila’s role was the “game changer”. Kamila guidance is the reason I can write this from a
place of knowing that recovery and healing is possible.


Progress and recovery are not linear however determination and hope are two very powerful weapons in the fight to eliminate this disease. My daughter still struggles, I still struggle but Kamila’s willingness to support our journey by sharing her own encourages us to wake up and fight the fight, tomorrow is gone and today is a gift!

 

My gratitude and admiration for Kamila Tan will never be quantifiable."

~Brandy H. | Mother of a Beach Volleyball Athlete

My experience with Kamila was phenomenal! As a former D1 gymnast, I have struggled with body image issues and Binge Eating Disorder. Her sessions were significantly helpful for me since she understands being a high-level athlete and the pressures from coaches, competition, etc. She helped me with so many breakthroughs and backed it up with scientific research and actionable steps to move forward. Her knowledge of the spectrum of eating disorders is expansive, and she pours so much of her heart into each session. Kamila made me feel seen, heard, and supported in every session, and held space for me to be vulnerable and dive deep. I continuously looked forward to learning more with her each week! She is so sweet and absolutely committed to using her experience to help others heal. I highly recommend Kamila to help guide you.

~Hailey J. | Former Competitive Gymnast

I had the amazing opportunity to meet Kamila with my beach volleyball partner who struggles with an eating disorder. I wanted to learn how I could support my partner, as well as educate myself more about how an eating disorder can affect someone. Our session was incredibly educational and I learned so much about not only what an ED looks like but what tools I could use to help my friends/teammates. Kamila is an incredible human being and I am so thankful for her courage to share her story and her passion for helping others!

~Kiera S. | Beach Volleyball Athlete

Kamila has inspired me in many ways throughout my recovery. She inspires me through her story of recovery, her self acceptance and love for self and body, and through her Instagram posts, quotes that she texts me, and from her being herself. Kamila is beautiful and strong and she inspires me to be myself, love myself, and love my body the way I am because my body has never given up on me through everything I have put it through. I am getting stronger every day.


At the beginning of recovery, Kamila believed in me more than I believed in myself. She helped me learn several skills to fight my ED and not let it control me. The skills I have learned have been a big factor in my recovery because when I am struggling I use them instead of unhealthy
habits. The skills help me and make me feel good. She truly cares about me and supports me. Another thing that has been super helpful through recovery is text support. There are days and nights where I have had a hard time and felt isolated, but with support from Kamila, I got
through it in a healthy way. She guided me with different skills I could use at that moment and
she talked me through the emotional pain that I felt.


I feel very empowered to fight my ED. In the beginning, I didn’t want to. I was scared and isolated. I felt weak and I felt that my ED had already beaten me, but it didn’t, and through this Embracing Strength program I have learned that and I have grown so much. I am strong,
beautiful AND I have so much to live for. I did not learn that until I met Kamila. I am very grateful for Kamila and for this program that she started. Without it, I would not be where I am today. I would not feel motivated to recover and I would have no hope. I am a very lucky girl and Kamila is helping me get stronger, healthier, and happier to have the ability to become the best athlete I can be and follow my passions and dreams in life. Recovery is a long and hard journey, but I do not regret reaching out for help. Recovery has proved how strong I am on the inside and outside. I know I can beat my ED because I am learning from Kamila, who is a woman I admire in sport and in life, the strongest woman I know, an ED survivor, and a friend. Thank you.

~Kara R. | Beach Volleyball Athlete