Hermosa Beach, CA

©2018 by Kamila Tan

STORIES OF HOPE

I had the privilege of working with Kamila Tan my senior year of high school. Having her support was vital to the maintenance of my recovery when I first returned home from treatment. Kamila Tan is one of the most open minded, inspiring, and caring women I have ever met and she embodies resilience and love. Having a mentor who personally lived through the depths of her own eating disorder allowed Kamila to be so available to my emotional and physical struggles. She armed me with invaluable recovery tools which I still use on a daily basis and offered me unique perspectives on my eating disorder thoughts and core beliefs. Kamila is an amazing role model and was an absolute blessing in my recovery and I look up to her tremendously.

~Maddie H. | age 18

"Desperate and terrified, I sat in my 17 year old daughter’s bed, unable to sleep trying to make sense of the silent killer that had stolen her. My daughter, with the kindest soul, sweetest spirit and the biggest smile had been battling an opponent that paled in comparison to any elite beach volleyball player she ever faced. Eating Disorder, Exercise Addiction, Bulimia, Body Dysmorphia, Depression, Anxiety, Binging, Restriction and Self Harm were terms that were part of a language that I did not speak. These terms were not a description of the person my daughter showed the world yet defined her internal reality and they were slowly killing her.
 

As I “Googled, Eating Disorders In Beach Volleyball Athletes”, I found Kamila, she spoke this language. I listened to her journey, and felt as though I was listening to my daughter. Easy going, everyone’s friend, athletically elite, insanely intelligent and dangerously sick. I emailedKamila with my daughter’s story, hoping for a resource or maybe a recommendation for parents as I live on the opposite side of the country. What I received was Kamila, willing to be raw and vulnerable in sharing a parent’s struggle and challenges with Eating Disorders through the lens of an individual being controlled by the disease.
 

To say that this insight was invaluable does not do Kamila’s impact justice. Not only did it help me as a parent understand my role( self reflection IS hard) in my daughter’s illness, she encouraged self compassion, patience with myself and my daughter while focusing on recovery and healing. As I write this, I am reminded of what the fear felt like, that night 6 months ago, and Kamila’s role was the “game changer”. Kamila guidance is the reason I can write this from a
place of knowing that recovery and healing is possible.


Progress and recovery are not linear however determination and hope are two very powerful weapons in the fight to eliminate this disease. My daughter still struggles, I still struggle but Kamila’s willingness to support our journey by sharing her own encourages us to wake up and fight the fight, tomorrow is gone and today is a gift!

 

My gratitude and admiration for Kamila Tan will never be quantifiable."

~Brandy H., Mother of a Beach Volleyball Athlete